perpetually purgeatory

[image] Literally me

[image] I hate these kind of posts like why r we comparing DEADLY mental illnesses?

[image] PURGEATORY LOOK AT THIS

[image] I made this 🔥🔥🔥 based on true events

[image] one of my most severe b/p’s ever. like i was completely dissociated the entire time, don’t remember anything from yesterday, unknowingly pissed and shit my pants, and apparently started crying in the ice cream aisle of the store

[image] i had this b/p at 3:30am last night and in the morning, my mom yelled at me and threatened to call the cops on me to have me sent to a psych unit. she was gonna do it til my grandmother talked her down. now if i have even one (1) slip-up, i’m getting the cops called (continued)

[image] this weather is killing me

[image]

[video] I find it ironic that when non edtwt ppl want to be mean they show photos of food but this is literally my smallest bp

[image] secret seventh option added to the ED clinic intake form 🤫🤫

[video] And this is how I went from ana-r to Ana b/p

[video] Sometimes when I finish b/ping I shake so bad and it scares me

[image] i’m very locked in, obviously

[video] the bathroom-to-bedroom walk after purging:

[image] When you are bulimic you also are a:

[image] i ate a kg of dates with a stick of butter #Ok

[image] well at least i can say i hit 3.5 days (half a week) b/p-free and that’s something!! this made me feel everything and then nothing in a matter of hours if that makes any sense

[image] cried on the ed crisis hotline just to b/p anyway

[image] some of yesterday’s b/p 😛🤤

[image] binging makes me 10x more suicidal than restricting

[image] Meow

[image] I hate when media makes fun of us, "have you been eating less or just barfing more" OH MY GOD SHUT THE FUCK UP PLEASE, IT IS NOT FUNNY.

[video] I cant stop

[image] yesterday’s b/p 🤤🤤 (currently dealing with the b/p hangover 😭)

[image] I would bp this so bad 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

[video] Having to hide that I have Mia while everyone thinks I just started to eat more 🫩

[image] Being bulimic be like

[video] And then I get the urge to get rid of it and if I don't do it I feel double guilty 🫤

[image] i b/p’ed pitas, ice cream & loaded pirogies late last night because the stress of everything is too much for me to handle. i kept down 213 cals (protein shake + coffee + jello cups) earlier in the day & feel gross for b/ping AND keeping smth down in the same day

[image] i’ll get clean tomorrow! i said… tomorrow right? xd

[video] I could bp an entire biscoff jar or more istg

[image] Prging / having mia, I hate when in tv shows or films they make mia jokes like sybau 🫩

[image] Tbh i """"love"""" bping after losing weight

[video] I hate it, and nobody cares cus ur not bmi -11

[image] young hos bodycheck with their bp food

[video] Having bulimia while having a "healthy" body be like

[image]

[image] Some ppl say "teach me how to b/p!" but they don't know this and that you end up w an addiction, like no I'm not gonna teach you how to DESTROY your life

[video] I hate that nobody notices my mia but also kinda love it

[image] all stocked up 😍😍

[image] Real. Like I have seen edtt videos that basicaly say: ana wow skinny coquette 🥰🥰🥰 mia/bed fat ugly 😡😡😡 IM SO TIRED, ALL OF THEM LITERALLY ARE MORTAL, none is better or worse

[video] oh. my. god.

[image] i had another bad one yesterday (friday) evening. both the shower and toilet got clogged and today was spent cleaning up partially fermented puke. just how i wanted to spend my saturday. also, i forgot to take pics of round 4 oops

[image] I need this unironically

[image] yesterday’s b/p!! got to have a lot of the stuff i was craving at least lmao 😭😭

[image] haven’t lost weight in over 6 months

[image] today’s b/p. there was more pasta + a tub of parmesan cheese i didn’t take pics of. my weight is 0.8lb below my morning weight, but it doesn’t feel like i’ve done enough. however, for my own sanity, i’m done and not gonna go any further

[image] today’s morning b/p. purged & flushed til bile and was 1kg below my morning weight, then got yelled at by my mom for “being a selfish glutton.” currently shivering and shaking in bed, super physically and mentally exhausted

[image] I get sad when people tell me I eat too much candy and sugar so I eat some candy to make myself feel better and hope nobody finds out

[video] Realest thing I have seen today, tho I saw one film I think Kate's secret and it was sooo realistic and good (atleast for me)